"him and his ukelele shall go wanting!"

My Hurricane Harbor plans with Michelle was cancelled so, instead, I went to Lourdes Zamora's funeral mass at St. Ann's and then shopped at Grapevine with Michelle (taxfree weekend today). She wanted to get something from JC Penney. They didn't have em in the color she wanted so we shopped at the The Dave and Barry's instead (where everything is only $7.98 or below!) I got two UTA shirts (YES! they DO have UTA shirts!) and two carpenter pants. After that, we talked and stuff and she corrected how I say "frustrated" and I told her how Filipino infixes (gitlapi) works.

It has been confirmed that she likes another guy so it is really useless to be attracted to her. or rather, to desire a "romantic" relationship with her. It is kinda sad at first, but God will give me what I deserve. As for me: patience is a virtue. Who knows, maybe he wants me to take the priestly thoughts more seriously. Besides, I like Michelle just fine as a friend: really fun to hang out with, talk with and extremely bearable when shopping (maybe because she hates shopping that makes me feel we have something in common. I don't think I hate it really that much, tho). She is just a really sweet person and it is crazy not to be attracted to her personality.

I just wish these thoughts of her would go away. I am tired of it.

I have this confused view of attraction. I like this girl I had a past with but I know it will not work out because of distance. She keeps expressing her adoration of me so i just can't just get over her. I honestly wish it would stop but I have no way of saying without severely causing pain. I abhor this distance. Why should everything should be so dang complicated?

I seriously need to pray more.

Bahala na. if i need something, God will provide.