"Thou shall honor thy father and and thy mother"

Great graces were reserved to whoever obeys this commandment, according to Jesus. It's the only commandment with a guarantee. Some people think it's an easy way to heaven: just respect the people who you would naturally love (because they are, after all, your parent) and there you have your easy ticket. Unfortunately tho, it's not as easy as it sems for some (or most probably MOST) of us.

I for example, I came home from school today and I saw Papa fixing the vacuum. He then started blaming me for breaking the vacuum (the brush belt got torn). He started yelling and blaming and cussing me out ("Peste ka talaga dito" and "Wala ka nang ginawang matino"). Things led to another and it led to him yelling to my face and Im trying to reason out (I didn't use the vacuum on the carpet but on the linoleum kitchen floor). He kept yelling over and over, accusing me of letting it run on the carpet for long periods of time, and then yelled "YOU SHOULD LISTEN FIRST!" So replied, "You should listen to me too!" BAM! He picked the vacuum and threw it on the floor. Katter put into words exactly what I was thinking at that moment: "that's definitely going to fix it."

Usually, when I have a brush with my parents, I feel guilty of my disrespect. Not this time. All I asked for him was to listen that I never used the vacuum on the carpet before he did (and this naturally leads me to suspect). He can't accept the fact that he should also liten to what I have to say before he makes accusation (after all, I am just a useless son). It annoys me that I have a father that has the biggest pride I have ever ecountered in my life. This is not the time but he would lie just to feed his own pride. I avoid any contact with him the best I can because he hates me for some reason. He hates the fact that I wont give in to his lies and and suspicions as easily as he can fool his "drinking mates" (kainuman) the back home.

Sometimes, I say to myself, "There goes my easy ticket..." I think that God gave this promise of great grace because it requires great abilities. It is such a great challenge that for most of us, we have to deal with them for a great deal of our lives. Honestly, sometimes, I wish I didn't have a father. I would rather wonder how it feels having one than actually having someone like him.

I love blogger tho because it lets me vent out like this.