Last week, i have been alot with this friend that i grew special feelings with. is it mere friendship or more than that, I am not sure. What's important is that i feel happy whenever i am with this person. however, i kinda still get depressed at times. mood swings. weird me.

As everyone might have known by now, The Space Shuttle mission STS-107 ended in a tragic accident. Papa woke me up last saturday saying, "Mark, Yung space shuttle, sumabog!!!" I immediately remembered Kalpana Chawla, a mission specialist In the shuttle Columbia when it disintegrated. She was in the school paper like 3 weeks ago. She got her masters at UTA so that's probably why the school and her professor (my teacher in Intro to MAE) got alot of media attention. Its cool but sad too thinking that she was an aerospace engineer from my school. Its also disturbing to think that while those TV cameras are seeing the shuttle reak up, thats the time the crew are dying. It's like watching an execution from afar.

They had a memorial service for her today in Nedderman Hall. (aka Hall of Flags). it's sad. important people spoke and one of them was my teacher in Introduction to Mechanical/Aerospace Eng. he is Chawla's thesis adviser, as they have said in the school paper. They also had the media in Woolf hall (the Engineering bldg) when i got there in the morning (around 7:15 AM). Fox 4 News is interviewing a guy with the billboard for STS-107 in the background. owell. Its weird. I am camera shy so i usually walk behind the camera man.

When i grow up, i will be an astronaut. perhaps I will be the first Filipino in space (kung may mauna, i will be happy for him/her). I want to go to Mars and tap dance. When y'all see me on TV doing that, you will be like "haha... that astronaut guy is really funny." Then I'll be sad since u didnt even recognize me. =(

Aimee told me to include my thoughts in my blog. I dunno. I always had troubles expressing my deeper thoughts cuz i myself drown in them. i have trouble what language I am gonna use in here, what more to express thoughts that fester my brain from time to time. however, I will still try my best to do that. i think its kool naman eh.

I have a an exploratory paper due on monday. Mine's about the first strike on iraq -- is it justifiable? I have been reading alot from Time to World Press Review. i desperately need an A. why desperate? wala lang. I just think high grades in papers are cool. Don't you think?